And though she might be made /
Of memories and light /
Still I can’t bear to lose /
Her beauty from my sight
I watch her as she leaves /
More beautiful than life /
A beauty like the sun /
Glinting off a knife
I’ll walk this place alone /
Till I see her again /
Till I can join her there /
On the astral plane
I sink beneath the heat /
Beyond all pride and pain /
And as I fall asleep /
I feel her touch again
My love, she comes to me /
Whenever there is sun /
I’ll call this desert home /
Until my race is run
I came into this place /
Longing to forget /
But everywhere I meet /
Ghosts of my regret
And my life too will end /
I know it cannot last /
The wealth of Solomon /
Could not buy back my past
And love is lost too soon /
And sorries come too late /
And unforgiven men /
Can never pass the gate
I’ve begged forgiveness from /
Every god I know /
I can’t escape the debt /
To her that I still owe
The veil is growing thin /
I must be near the end /
My love is waiting at /
The last horizon bend
And she can’t come below /
And I can’t go above /
We love what we must lose: /
That’s The Revenge for Love
(a little Wyndham Lewis reference there for you)
I’ve treasured every word /
She’s said and sighed and sung /
In fearful hope I hear /
Forgiveness on her tongue
I’ll seek forgiveness here /
Until my dying breath /
If it won’t come before /
I’ll seek it after death
I know I should have known /
I’d lose her if I lied /
I know it should be me /
There on the other side
Tear off the ghostly veil /
You are caught among /
Take this apology /
From my dying tongue
An unforgiven man /
My time is coming fast /
No absolution for /
My unforgiven past
I saw her yesterday /
Upon a burning hill /
And in tomorrow’s light /
Her ghost will haunt me still
A thousand days of hope /
A thousand nights of fear /
An unforgiven man /
The end is coming near
I can’t forgive myself /
I can’t forget the past /
I’ll seek forgiveness here /
Until the very last
There in the morning light /
She sparkles, bright and still /
She’s made of all the tears /
I drove her to spill
An unforgiven man /
Adrift on desert plains /
A ghost that haunts a ghost /
A past that still remains
I’m near, I’m near the end /
Lay me down to sleep /
Forgive the promises /
That I couldn’t keep
Out in the desert sun /
Things aren’t what they seem /
Still, I’d trade the whole world /
For this desert dream
She sings, she sings to me /
Songs about our past /
I am Odysseus /
Cut loose from his mast
I’m near, so near to life’s /
Last horizon bend /
Together, hand in hand /
Walk me to the end
I’m sorry, Love, I am /
More than words can say /
And though it breaks my heart /
Love, I cannot stay
She’s here, she’s here again /
Beckoning me on /
And when I reach for her /
She’s already gone
I’m near, so near to her /
Never quite in reach /
I’m learning of a love /
Loss alone can teach
She dances with the dawn /
Dances through the day /
Until the setting sun /
Dances her away
Daylight fills the desert skies / And lifts the nightmare from my eyes / And shimmering on the distant sand / My love is holding out her hand
Wild as I was, I never knew /
I’d run the risk of losing you /
I’ve searched for you both low and high /
I’ll search till desert turns to sky
I’m as empty as the desert plain /
And I pray for her love like I pray for the rain /
And, there, in the shimmering morning sun /
She dances again with the new horizon
(Just posted this without the final line by mistake.)
My hope awakens with the sun /
And shines on all I should’ve done /
And truth greets me like desert rain /
To bring our love to life again
The stars will light your darkest hour /
The cactuses will come to flower /
The desert hides a secret spring /
There’s hope to find in everything
I’m as empty as the desert plain /
And I pray for her love like I pray for the rain /
And, there, in the shimmering morning sun /
She dances again with the new horizon
Her eyes were warm, her words were soft, she smiled with ageless youth /
I ran away in fear of goodness, beauty and the truth
I told her all that I had done was all that I could do /
And she looked at me in silence as I told her nothing new
I’m waiting for the daylight and I’m waiting for her word /
And I’m waiting for a pardon like a begging gallows bird
I lied like men before me, men I knew would die alone /
Still, I left my simple garden for a desert made of stone
She said, “I love you, darling, with an undivided heart /
But you tore your love in two and gave me just one part”
I dream about her singing in the house we never had /
The children outside playing with the man that they call Dad
Once there was a garden that we lived safe within /
Now I walk this wilderness in garments made of skin
Silence settles on my tongue, it’s shape falls like her name /
It sits like ashes fallen from a fading phoenix flame
She didn’t weep or say a word, she didn’t pace the floor /
She packed my bags and stood there, calm, beside the bedroom door
No one here to follow me and no one by my side / Once there was a girl who was, but, once, alas, I lied
Out here a man must empty his heart of mortal hope /
And plan to meet the place beyond the scaffold and the rope
I look into my future with my ageing eyes of sin /
And death is there and dancing with a flaming violin
I’m riding to the edge of night, upon this dusty lake /
I’m riding to the edge of night, till dawn or I will break
I walked a world of sand and stone, I walked a fiery way /
I knelt before a silent sky and asked it how to pray
We lay there in your garden, the flowers all in bloom /
You promised, then, to be my bride, and I to be your groom
I came into the desert to cast aside my name /
But I still I hear it calling on a thousand tongues of flame
I search among the shadows, my sense is worn thin /
I swing upon the gates of death and beg to be let in
The angel of forgiveness and the devil of my pride /
Fought me in the desert and I fought on either side
They say the line of good and bad runs through every heart /
God knows I need to mend it but the devil wants his part
I dig a hole of sand and stones, beside the thorny trees /
My hope as dry as desert bones, as dust upon the breeze
Daylight fills the sky, night begins to fade /
The future calls me to confront the choices that I’ve made
You slept, as I crept out / Now, we’re both alone / You’d offered up your heart / I gave you a stone
I’ve prayed so hard for life / Death I sought the same / A flaming, holy light / Burns my face with shame
I’ve longed, through desert nights / For your smiling face / An unforgiven man / Longing for your grace
But I still think of you / Though we’re far apart / You are the desert spring / Deep within my heart
Sand shifts beneath my feet / Slowing every tread / And scattered all around / Memories that I’d fled
The desert stretches wide / Stars stretch out above / I hear a voice inside: / Come, come back, my love
This land of thorns and scars / Sand and sun-bleached bone / Surrounds me with myself / Hell: myself, alone.
One star above me shines / Bright with memory / I hear the bells, they chime: / Grace, rise up to be
I left my love a note / All our tears shed: / ‘Your life’s a tapestry / Mine’s a tangled thread’
An unforgiven man / Longing to be free / I’ll keep on moving on / Till I’m free from me
You’re far, so far from me / Fixed just like a star / Your light, your memory / Fills this old guitar
I’m far, so far from home / Filled with old regret / An unforgiven man / Longing to forget
My sins have followed me / Though I’ve tried to hide / My desert’s not out there / Mine is deep inside
My love is calling me / Look out for the light / Your unforgiven sins / Are the desert night
I am not here alone / Here, I cannot hide / My unforgiven sins / Shadow every side
The desert chorus sings / Songs as old as stone / The desert chorus sings / Don’t come out alone
It’s the song of the unforgiven, it’s the chorus of the night /
It’ll sing you through the desert on your way to make things right
A man can fill a desert, if he has enough regret /
And he goes there unforgiven and unable to forget
The road toward forgiveness is a long one headed back /
My heart is full of fearful hope, I tread a darkened track
‘Who are you?’, the creature sang, ‘You are not what you seem’. /
‘Nor are you’, I whispered low, and rode into a dream.
I’ve travelled light, I’ve travelled long, my guitar on my back /
a desert-dwellin’ Orpheus, well off the beaten track
Melodies, memories, rise from the blue /
Ol’ desert trickster he’s singin’ ‘bout you
Beneath the unforgiving sun
(Heigh, heigh, heigh-ho)
Under the unforgetting moon
(Heigh-ho)
I looked for nothing and for no-one
(Heigh, heigh, heigh-ho)
I longed for an indifferent land
(Heigh-ho)
I looked for nothing and for no-one
(Heigh, heigh, heigh-ho)
I longed for an indifferent land
(Heigh-ho)
But, still, your memory is reaching
(Heigh, heigh, heigh-ho)
Out across the desert sand
(Heigh, heigh, heigh-ho)
Gary Lucas commented on Darcy's lyric:
"Thank you for your comment below, Darcy. It’s an honor and a privilege to know you and work with you on this—your words mean so much to me!"
(more)"Wild as I was, I never knew / I’d run the risk of losing you / I’ve searched for you both low and high / I’ll search till desert turns to sky"